2016.09.28 night
That day we were celebrating mid autumn festival. I was in charge for a game stall. There were many students came and play at my stall even the lecturers too.

2016.09.30 morning
My mentor called me to meet her. I was shocked and nervous, thinking that something bad might had happened. And yeah I was right. She told me that one of the Chinese lecturer complained about my attitude during the celebration. It was said that I had no manners towards the lecturer. I was shocked more than nervous. I can't recall what happened during the celebration. All I know is that I was enjoying leading the game. It's a very serious thing as it happened in IPG. *sigh

To the Chinese lecturer:
I am sincerely sorry for my misbehaviour and I will change the way of talking . Although I don't remember what I did wrong and I might not be wrong...well I'm just sorry.

Dear diary,
I'm gonna be 19 years old in 2 months. It should be a proud thing to be 19, I guess. Well, things doesn't work out for as it should be.
I'm a soon to be 19 year old girl, but you know what made me different from others?
My outlook.
I'm a 19 year old girl with a 14 year old body. Well i think we gotta change it to 12 already.
Duhh 12 yr old girls already start to "grow" boobs and I don't.
I've been struggling on this "situation" since 14 years old.
No one ever knew how much I suffer, From the laughs of people, from those criticizing words.
Why me?
I've cried for years, having no "'solution" to it. I tried to ignore everything about it. I've even tried to accept myself. But how can I when it is so obvious that I don't have. I've tried...
But, why me?
Why must it be me? Why can I be like other normal girls? Why can't I be a normal girl?
WHY...?

I am feeling very stress about my assignment and being in this not so called university.